Eleven weeks since I lost my ability to speak, this has been incredibly frustrating, exhausting, and defeating.

There is a sad presumption that FND is chosen and when we decide to change our minds we will suddenly be back to full functionality. 

It has been 126 days since I have used my voice out loud. Except for a few words, I have been told that it should come back. 

I am in a body, but it is not me. This is not who I was or who I ever wanted to be. How can I communicate with it? Encourage it to align with me, help it see? 

I am in a wheelchair and I have to admit I really wanted to show I wasn't confined, but no one seems to understand that every single action I now take is more effort.