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What has the world become, have we numbed ourselves to all the pain

I look left then look right but yet there is no one around

I have always felt defaulted to kindness, it has always just resonated with who I want to be

It's that time of year again, where you are simultaneously excited and exhausted all at once as you begin this race's last inning

This is dedicated to one of the most special relationships I know

When the day has been long or triggers have spiked your emotions high

It's hard sometimes when conflict arises, or misunderstanding and even disparity compels us to take action

The seasons, the years, the times that felt unhinged and you wish that you could just erase

You have navigated many stormy seas, you're a captain, and though it's your job is to direct, you never thought you would in the end be alone

I wanted you to choose me, not because you are biologically obligated or you felt guilty but because a piece of you wanted me

Forgiveness, is a big one, a hard one, how do you release the pain and suffering, and let someone free of the harm they have caused you?

Can you be in two places at once, a contradictory position, like your heart and mind are at battle and in a state of war

They say don’t disassociate, allow the feelings, be present, it will subside, but sometimes it actually doesn’t and the imminent need is survival

Be careful little eyes what you see is a line I remember hearing as a child and I get it now because what you see can ultimately impact everything

Family, it is our first interactions in life, the establishment of routines, values and our beliefs

You do not owe anyone your story because no one has lived your life and though it feels unjust at times, your life is not something you have to prove

Today I reflect and I am reminded of a very special day that I want to celebrate and utilise it's notions every single day of the year

As the dark still lingers and the sun tries to rise over the mountain, it is confronted with the fog that reminds me that sorrow still is in my midst

I am only a human and am weighted by adversity, hearing that I'm expected to survive and overcome independently because I always do feels ignorant

I surrender the fight for this year and give myself permission to find rest, I am aware at this stage nothing else for the year can be achieved

A year that has shifted me more then I feel my whole life has ever done, I am unsure if it is the adversity or my that my heart is more inclined from the broken to find healing

We are predisposed to inherently hold certain characteristics, additionally we are guided by experiences, trauma, endorphins, this all shapes how we engage

I have journeyed far and experienced great things while also having overwhelming struggles, I find myself now with the resolution to at all costs prioritise my peace

Hope, what is it actually weighted in it because I find myself being repelled by phrases that only sound nonsensical like fairies running around and throwing dust

I have grappled with this notion of bravery for awhile now as I have always gravitated to what I thought was its purpose, and for me I thoughts its value was purely to be strong

Traditions are something that have always held substantial value to me as they are part of me, and shared from history in hopes maybe they can be held in the future too

Hello in there, my inner soul mate, the child inside me that has been pushed to the back for so long and has been filled with anguish and fear

The darkness doesn't have to stay, you can tell it that it has had its time and now it can kindly leave

A day filled with cheer and joy right? But why is everyone so exhausted by the time it comes and weighted with the tasks to make everything perfect

Today is a day that comes with pressure and motions to achieve certain results or traditions, or that the only way to enjoy the day is to be around family

I am sitting here knowing that this year has been the deepest level of defeat I have ever endured, and wander how I have remained to keep any hope alive

It is a one man journey, this mountain is bigger than any other one I have ever climbed and the obstacles, the defeats are surely greater than any before

Have you ever grieved a love of a person who is still alive and walking around but cannot give the love to you that you so have wished for and desired

Sometimes when life throws us a curveball we can have this thought or desire to want our old life back

The weight in words is beyond more than most actions can do, they truly can restore a person but I will tell you it's also too easy to tear someone down with them