This is currently my daily battle as I grapple with the words of others. I know I'm wired with a sensitive nature, but gosh, it's hard not to let it hurt.
I can be so calm and centered, and one person can say one hurtful thing and my mood turns. It's hard to deflect that purpose, for even when they are unaware, I know it's not what I deserve.
I have to use all my tools in the basket, my grounding techniques, in hopes that my emotions don't evoke, and my words begin to rise and turn.
Because I know as hard as the words are, it's not reflective of my own worth, and perhaps they are struggling. I have found that refraining here is what I need to learn.
It is hard sometimes as I feel they people should be held accountable for unkind words or given their own opportunities to be able to understand their words hold weight.
But I often find this tactic isn't beneficial, and so I have to do what I can control, which is just regulating my own body as I choose towards inner peace to gravitate.
This is a hard pill to swallow and a learning experience that takes daily effort, stilling myself and my need to have a say, and sometimes I admit I don't get it right and do fail.
However, I have learned failure is only a moment and I can choose to try again and maybe there I will find my grounding in hopes next time someone pushes my buttons, I won't be so quick to derail.
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