Who will hear my voice

Who will hear my voice, who will hear my cry, I am running out of options to try and I'm exhausted in my attempts to make myself feel heard

I am unsure how to change this situation and how to allow my voice space and time to be seen, I feel defeated as no one but me seems to see the concern

I spend all night in my mind strategising on ways or avenues that could assist my ability to be heard, maybe I'm not articulating myself enough

I really thought I was intelligent and capable but most interactions leave me disappointed and the feelings of failure and inadequacy are rough

I want someone, anyone to understand but the reality is if my first cries for help were heard I wouldn't even be here in this disordered position

Imagine being invalidated constantly, yet knowing your body is not coping and you are doing all you can to change this current awful condition

I am here, left with the conclusion to accept the reality that putting in great efforts has no success and that I may be the only one who hears my cry

I guess the voice I have to listen to and be kind to is the one within me, knowing that regardless of external defeat I can somehow find comfort in knowing I have myself atleast on my side