This has become my favourite time of the week, when offices are closed, because I no longer have to be disappointed by the lack of responses
It is like a release, the expectation or hope that someone might help is not happening and I can accept reality and allow my mind to let go of the what ifs and the causes
I have tried so hard to advocate and ask for supports, put things in order, but no one else seems too concerned, maybe it's a sign to just accept the reality
It does seem harsh and I never anticipated that a world would be so hostile to provide answers, but if you are going to move on it's time to accept the brutality
It might change, someone might one day turn around and say hey we are here to help, the waiting lists have been reduced, now is your turn
But I just can no longer let my thoughts be consumed by the option as it instills the current absence, neglecting the possibility is the only valid thing for imminent survival is what I've learnt
I am not without hope, I am just realistic to the situation that has not changed for a substantial time, concreting my resolve in the facts and evidence
See hope is one thing but if you are going to make it through life with limited defeat, in my opinion reality and acceptance takes precedence
Add comment
Comments