Imprisoned

I am stuck in a body that despite me constantly yelling at it, begging it to move, I am met with resistance and the reminder I am no longer in control

It is truly its own torture, a confinement that is hard to explain, I am imprisoned in my own body and it feels like even trying to explain it is pointless because nobody really  knows

Its hard to grapple with the concept that this is my new life, but honestly the jail cell in my body is nothing compared to being constantly stuck in my own mind

That is a never ending cycle of pain where I feel escape is impossible and am worried that my attempts at being heard are fruitless and I'll forever be here confined

Its dark, I feel the cage, the emptiness, the stark surroundings of absolutely nothing and wandering how does one in this situation find a key to escape and get hope

I am unsure really, I feel I have tried every possible way out to get myself free because I really don't want to be here anymore, but I am finding it hard to find anything left to hold

So here I am stuck in a hell that I must conclude if leaving this world included such a place it's irrelevant as I am already living it in that realm of despair daily

I guess all there is left to do is get comfortable as the expectations of being uncaged have only left to disappointment, who knows one day I might be surprised maybe