Dissociation

They say don’t disassociate, allow the feelings, be present, it will subside, but sometimes it actually doesn’t and the imminent need is survival.

But yes, it’s true when you put it to the side. It’s because you know it hurts and even without resurfacing the awful experience, the reality is you’re still stuck in a cycle.

Because your mind is clever, see its job is to protect you, so sometimes, when you are just trying to get through, your priority is to guard your heart.

However, it’s not forgotten, it’s stored in your memory bank, so if a situation arises that sparks a similar emotion, your body goes into disarray as it can’t tell the two apart.

I do believe that our body is kind to us and only tries to keep us safe. The body and mind connection is incredible as it works in overdrive, for your life it desires to preserve.

But sometimes trauma is inevitable, because it’s held inside of us, so when the alarm goes off, don’t be surprised when you feel it through every body part, every nerve.

You’re allowed to feel unsafe, hurt, scared, broken, hopeless and despaired. Sometimes awful things happen, but they will damage your body if you leave it inside forever. 

And if you don’t create space for it, allow yourself intentionality and opportunity in a secure environment to pursue healing and recover, it will rear itself in an ugly way, no warning given, just whenever.

And this is the danger, because without a safe place to land, it can be harmful to yourself and how you continue to engage in life and interact in this world.

It can influence your actions, but please hear my words. I know these things are not nice, but your body, mind, heart and soul are gentle and back to who you truly are is how they want to return

So they will work with you if you let them. Their intentions are kind and, ultimately, want the best for you. 

They don’t want you to be tethered to this trauma and constantly triggered by its past. Their ultimate desire is to reset and renew.

So take it slowly, tenderness is important to the process, there isn’t a time frame, healing isn’t linear, there is no due date, vitality is just to continue the gentle pursuit. 

The restoration begins and continues when you allow the ebb and flow, and as you listen to your body, give it kindness, for its intent to protect you will never uproot.