Dissociation

They say don’t disassociate, allow the feelings, be present, it will subside, but sometimes it actually doesn’t and the imminent need is survival

But yes it’s true when you put it to the side, it’s cos you know it hurts and even without resurfacing the awful experience the reality is you’re still stuck in a cycle

Because your mind is clever, see it’s job is to protect you, so sometimes when you are just trying to get through, it’s priority is to guard your heart

However it’s not forgotten, it’s stored in your memory bank, so if a situation arises that sparks a similar emotion your body goes into disarray as it can’t tell the two apart

I do believe that our body is kind to us and only trying to keep us safe, the body and mind connection is incredible as it works in overdrive, for your life it desires to preserve

But sometimes trauma is inevitable, because it’s held inside of us so when the alarm goes off don’t be surprised when you feel it through every body part, every nerve

You’re allowed to feel unsafe, hurt, scared, broken, hopeless and despair, sometimes awful things happen but it will damage your body if you leave it inside forever

And if you don’t create space for it, allow yourself intentionality and opportunity in a secure environment to pursue healing and recover, it will rear itself in an ugly way no warning given, just whenever

And this is the danger because without a safe place to land, it can be harmful to yourself and how you continue to engage life and interact in this world

It can influence your actions, but please hear my words, I know these things are not nice but your body, mind, heart and soul are gentle and back to who you truly are is how they want to return

So they will work with you if you let them, they’re intentions are kind and ultimately want the best for you

They don’t want you to be tethered to this trauma and constantly triggered by its past, they’re ultimate desire is to reset, and renew

So take it slowly, tenderness is important to the process, there isn’t a time frame, healing isn’t linear, there is no due date, vitality is just to continue the gentle pursuit

The restoration begins and continues when you allow the ebb and flow, and as you listen to your body, give it kindness, for its intent to protect you will never uproot