I wanted you to choose me

I wanted you to choose me, not because you are biologically obligated, or you felt guilty, but because a piece of you wanted me.

I don't want to be unrealistic. I know you have your own full life, but I just wanted to be a part of it, and I am at a loss to help you see.

I love you, it's hard to imagine life without you, but I can't keep hoping for the love to be received that you are incapable to give.

So somehow I need to move past my idealistic wishes and learn to move on and figure out how, without you in my life, I live. 

I know you don't really understand, and I think that's what actually hurts the most, but I guess broken families are just a part of this imperfect fractured world. 

So I am working on accepting what is in front of me and putting efforts into making connections that I know my worth deserves. 

I will take this opportunity to learn and grow, though a little bit of me will always grieve you because you are a part of me and I can never forget that. 

But I will strive to keep pressing on, being grateful for what I have in this life and also being thankful that at some point a great thing we had.