I wanted you to choose me

I wanted you to choose me, not because you are biologically obligated or you felt guilty but because a piece of you wanted me

I don't want to be unrealistic, I know you have your own full life but I just wanted to be apart of it and I am at a loss to help you see

I love you, it's hard to imagine life without you but I can't keep hoping for love to be received that you are incapable to give

So somehow I need to move past my idealistic wishes and learn to move on and figure out how without you in my life I live

I know you don't really understand and I think that's what actually hurts the most but I guess broken families are just a part of this imperfect fractured world

So I am working on accepting what is in front of me and putting efforts into making connections that I know my worth deserves

I will take this opportunity to learn and grow though a little bit of me will always grieve you because you are a part of me and I can never forget that

But I will strive to keep pressing on, being grateful for what I have in this life and also being thankful that at some point a great thing we had