I am Sorry I Couldn't get you to Understand

I am sorry you did not understand me. I know I tried, but I can only imagine the load you carry and the fatigue of the tasks that keep you bound. 

I don't know if, to you, I am stereotypical or completely out of the box, but I know our connection was broken and, as a result, hardship seemed for both of us to be found.

I have told myself that though the adversity was a struggle and I felt mistreated, you probably were not well given support or knowledge to provide me with the best aid.

I want to somehow make this better for everyone, as I'm sure neither of us are feeling great about this, so I am contemplating how I can help this in the future to be changed.

I think there were many things lost in translation and if opportunity could take us back, there is a lot we could alter, so I am trying to figure out what from this I can learn.

Because although it currently still makes my insides churn with inner turmoil and dismay, my wellbeing and the desire for the best future are my priority and concern.

So should it be me apologising? I don't know how to be honest. I did not really think I would find myself here, but I know that this is an important step for me to find my peace.

Because, at the end of the day, I have learned, I need to protect and look after myself because my greatest ally in achieving my best in life is me.